Bye bye Domke bag, damn robbers!!!

I’ll miss my smelly, dirty domke bag that has served me well after all these years.

Was expecting many more years of usage from that bag but well….

go-to-hell-you-robbers!!!! May you pee blood tonight and your wives/girlfriends sprouts fungus the size of portobellos. May your head be unfertile and bald. May you never have a functioning ‘family jewel’ as long as you do bad to others.

Aih… kena changed the above statement…. Carrot said, love thy enemies.

So….

Dear Robbers, I have no choice but to love you cos Carrot reminded me that it says in the bible that we have to love our enemies. So . . .May you take the effort to see a doctor least you die of a sudden heart attack whilst robbing someone,  or your wives/gfs/prostitute pass to you some portobello-sized fungus disease whilst you are spending our hard earned money on them. Health is important you know. With the money (and stuff) you stole from us, get yourselves leather lined gloves so that you don’t get tetanus and die with your mouth clenched up or die of some blood poisoning. Money can’t buy health you know.

stormy night

I’m laying in bed typing this – yes, its nice to accurately type using a qwerty keyboard for a change. The rain came suddenly. At one point it was a bit frightening. Quite stormy. My thoughts and prayers are with those in the phillipines as the storm batters the country. Can you imagine your home swept away, family members missing, you out there cold and hungry. Very wet, with no shelter and its in the middle of the night, too dark for any one to come save you.

I thank God he’s blessed us all.

Of FB, WordPress, Angry Birds and smartphones (and yes, I am back with my daily grunts)

Okay…so Facebook changed their layout (again). But frankly i didn’t quite notice much until my cousin FB’ed and everyone i know on FB started to “bitch” about it. Why all the noise?

IMHO, the beautiful part of technology is its everchanging landscape.

And then WordPress changed THEIR layout too which i didn’t notice until my buddy mentioned to me. I thought my browser had problems loading all of WordPress and had gone wonky. So i left it at that. LOL.

I had the ubiquitiuos Angry Birds on my phone for about a week. Played with it everyday and today I UNINSTALLED it.Got bored. I just feel that I have really lost interests in mindless, one fingered, one dimentional games like Angry Birds. Oh yeah, I am a self-confessed “retired” semi-gamer. But I have half a mind to reintall my Sim City though. I rather like building type of games. And with the laptop that I have now, Sim City will just be a breeze to play, no lags, no drags. Those were the days of playing on those Pentium 133. Hahaha, even mentioning it is making me feel very, very old.

Yes, I have finally got on the smartphone bandwagon after holding back for yonks. Yes, I know, i know, I am supposed to be a “geek” so this holding back is kind of unusual. But well, one of my requirements is that the phone has to fit into my pocket so that means, no iPhones. Plus i want a phone with a Qwerty keyboard so again, iPhone’s not an option. And in the early days, i had a limited option where Operating systems were concerned – the aging and slow Symbian etc. And i wanted to have access to more apps than those offered by the mobile phone makers. And since Android was up and coming, i decided to wait until the OS has somewhat matured. And i find iPhones quite over-priced. So i just waited.

So what did i get? Picked up a newly launched (2 days old from its launching date) Sony Ericsson phone with a qwerty keyboard. I love the phone. Its fast and powerful and runs on gingerbread. The only snag? The bloody battery drains faster than anything. But then again, the same is said about ALL smartphones. It sucks – literally and figuratively (lah).

Thanks to Carrot, I played a decent sized order online for sync & charging cables, plus car charger for the phone and my ipod. Imaging, RM100 just on those but very essential things. If this lousy battery thing goes on like this, maybe I’ll invest in a solar-powered charger.

Any Android must-have apps to recommend?

I don’t blindly support the opposition

As it is, it was quite obvious that the current “walk” was politically motivated. But I pick the lesser of the two evils. I strongly believe that although the current ruling party has the foundations and the tools to run the country, they still need to be put in check otherwise they get more blatant, more greedy and more inept. By giving some voice to the opposition, we have better check and balances. Bi-partisanship? Not much of a choice at the rate things are going. It is better than just one, right?

One thing we must never forget is that the current opposition is filled with a lot  of rejects from the ruling party. Those fellas who “just can’t make it” willingly jump ship and join the opposition. So not much will change unless that person changes himself.

But more often than not, politicians are like leopards – they don’t change their spots.

So how? i make informed choices. I don’t blindly support the opposition just because. And just because i don’t support the opposition makes me a ruling party sympathiser. The ruling party has a lot to change (from within, top first). Again I’ll repeat,  politicians are like leopards – they don’t change their spots.What the old man M has cemented in the last few decades will be hard to undo. You can’t undo nepotism, racism and cronyism overnight. You can’t make them self-sufficient, less greedy overnight. People are usually not apt to giving up what they think are theirs. Sharing is rarely caring. They will not give up what they think they are entitled to, even though the aborigines have more right than anyone of us.

At times my heart weep for this country, we are heading down a slippery slope but a few brave ones have decided to stay on and fight the good fight to have it back to our glory days where we all ate at the same table, visited each others home etc. And you know what is worse, we have so much resources, so much capabilities and they just blew it all because they are greedy, myopic politicians.

Depressed, worried and sad – my life as a caregiver

His eyes teared up and so did mine. We both are worried but have to put up a brave front if not she’ll be more afraid.

I’m emotionally drained. I haven’t healed from the last one. I hate diseases. It turns lives upsidedown. Overnight our view to life and death not only changes but it affects how you live daily too. How you eat, walk, talk, think, react, counter-react, and love. Everything changes.

I am tired of being a caregiver but that seems to be my permanent role though. Its emotionally draining. You have to be the rock, watching out for the other one, watching for signs of discomfort and then quickly trying to ease that pain and give comfort. I haven’t started on the hospital and clinic trips yet too. The endless wait for the doctor’s visits – the queues are long. The wait at the pharmacy to collect the medicines (yeah, i had my fair share the last time before i buried her). And then the emotional turmoil when going for tests and waiting for the results.

I don’t know if i am strong enough to go through it again though.

* damn, i feel like crying again. sigh.

Honour, like good men, is dying out

There are but a handful of people i know who are honourable. The rest are just wannabes or like someone i once dated, he loved to pretend he was honourable. Maybe he watched too much tv.

Ask someone what they understand by honour and i can tell you they won’t be able to give you an answer.

As the time changes, we are in an era of “me, myself and I”. Altruism is dying out too. And with it, the motivation to do what is right. I have seen and experienced situations where men will do anything for money and would disregard their honour and pride. As people steer away from God, as will their want to do what is honourable.

True?

World English Dictionary

honour or honor  (ˈɒnə)
— n
1.	personal integrity; allegiance to moral principles
2.	a. fame or glory
	b. a person or thing that wins this for another: he is an honour to the school
3.	( often plural ) great respect, regard, esteem, etc, or an outward sign of this

Wiener’s weiner – a twitter scandal

Here’s a link for you guys who haven’t been following Anthony Weiner’s twitter boo-boo.

Thing is, everyone should know by now that the internet doesn’t really make you anonymous unless you take steps to make it so. Using your personal IM to send photos is just asking for your weiner to be published for the whole world to see. Wait, that is exactly what happened to Weiner. So if you want to send stuff to unknown people and do not want to jeapordize your reputation, set up a new account, run through some proxy server and please don’t show your face, reveal your name etc.

Its really amazing that in this time and age people are still none the wiser where it comes to the internet.

I am a practical technophile

I love technology but I am practical about what I buy. Surprisingly I don’t even own a smartphone. I don’t have an iPad. Nothing. Its odd since i even joint a tech-group when i was younger. Yes, I was a geek.

Thing is, technology is forever changing. It is hard for me to keep up with it financially. Plus, there’s always a difference between want and need. I can’t justify buying an ipad. As for the smartphone, their battery life sucks so I am not interested.

What i still go for are softwares to make my life easier etc. I bought a few HDD and has been doing my backups using Cobian. Very good backing up software which shuts down the PC after its done so you don’t have to sit and keep watch. I’ve been using Cobian for more than 4 years. Now its at version 10. Free too. These are the few things in life that is very good to use and free too.

 

The thing about weekends…..

What’s the thing about weekends that puts you on a “holiday” mood? It instantly switches you on to a relax mode and the stress eases away a bit.

How it is for me? It depends on what I am doing. If its a errand filled weekend, then i don’t really count it as a weekend break. If there’s nothing for me to do and its a leisurely one and all i’m doing is eat, sleep, read and take photographs then i’ll consider that as a “holiday/break”.

Then again, i don’t deny that there’s a magic on this thing called, weekend. The bed is more comfortable, food is tastier, the air is fresher.

I’ve much to do this weekend as i’m expecting a guest. I think i’ll have to wash my car whilst she’s having her bath otherwise i don’t see myself having any other time to do it. The furniture? It might need to wait a bit. My work, I’ll need to squeeze it in somehow.

 

I’ve been thinking of two persons today

One was her, at 2am today i opened up a folder containing her photos and videos that i had shot. There was a video dating 5 years ago when she was still chubby cheeked. She was laughing like she used to. You know, those hearty laughter, those belly laughs. Then suddenly i started to cry. I couldn’t help myself. I guess when you miss someone this badly, it will always hurt to remember the happy times. Perhaps.

Then tonight my thoughts travels to another person. I wonder how he is getting on. I think his son must be very big now. How old? I’ve lost track. Perhaps10 yo? or even 14 yo? I feel really sad to know that he was in financial difficulties but i helped as much as i could back then. And then, they suddenly disappeared. All contact numbers were unreachable. Something must have happened to them. I sometimes worry about him on how he’s coping. UK, where are you?